Well... that was a shock.

I woke up today dreading my fill... I hadn't seen my surgeon since November. I haven't had a very healthy Christmas and I can honestly say I have had more than my fair share of wine.

I walk towards his scales after knowing what mine had been saying the past week. Sigh and gulp I jump on.

Holy hell! I have actually lost weight and a lot more than I thought!.. oh and I had hit my target of pre wedding weight. He was surprised to see how shocked I was. And I told him I haven't. Been overly good. He laughed and said it was Christmas and there is no harm in treating myself over a few weeks.

I had a small 0.25ml put in as while I had no restriction feeling he seems to think my band is now working borderline green zone so he's happy. The main thing is I have taught my body to use the band and not let it control me too much. And it's showing with 1kg a week weightloss since November.

So I have now lost 31.5kg!!!!

And I am 4.9kg away from my next goal :) pre Hannah weight :)

PISSED off ....

So Herald Sun posted an article about 2005 winner of Australian Idol  - Kate DeAraugo losing weight.  BUT apparently it was controversial :/ ...
Thinking she must of developed an eating disorder - okay that's a little bit of a low blow but I honestly couldn't think of anything else.

I wasn't expecting her controversial weight loss to be GASTRIC SLEEVE!!!!  Gastric Sleeve is the step UP from banding - they remove 80% of your stomach and you're left with a permanent smaller stomach.  

Here is the link to the story - Kate DeAraugo Weight Loss

Coming from a fellow WLS patient I was so happy for her - it's not easy bringing it out in the open how you lost weight if this was your option.  Because it CAN cause a bit of an attack on us.  Comments on the Herald Sun Facebook page with this article were quite horrible to read.  Being a mum I have copped it - I didn't breastfeed I was a bad mother because I didn't try harder, I used disposable nappies (HELL SHOOT ME NOW), I rocked to sleep, I snuggled then when they should of been in bed... BUT I had no idea I would continue to get criticism for the way I CHOSE to lose weight...

Apparently people like myself are LAZY for choosing this option and we don't work hard enough.  Excuse the language coming up.  BUT FUCK YOU FUCKTARDS!!!  I work pretty damn hard with my band for it to work at it's best.  It's my TOOL it's not something I can get and go out and continue to eat the way I did before.  I no longer can eat KFC or Maccas, and if I do it's generally the healthier option and less off it.  I also didn't get FAT from sitting in front of the telly for hours on end eating crap food.  I still ate my salads and a lot healthier than my bean pole husband.  My issues with weight were more to do with the medication I was on for depression.  It's a very taboo issue anti depressants but for me they made me retain a lot of fluid and weight.  What I did eat, healthy or not would stay there.  I exercised at one stage going 4-5 days a week and was putting ON weight.  I was more depressed than ever because I was doing ALL the right things BUT I was gaining.  So I gave up and that's when the bad eating started. 

People who assume I have it easy with my band have never obviously spent a day NOT eating due to not being hungry, had a previous blockage so you need to rest the stomach for a little, vomiting, shoulder tip pain when you have too much gas in the stomach, just WANTING a quick meal because you need to head out... There have been days I haven't eaten lunch because I was in a rush between things (like kinder and school work), days like those would be lovely to be able to make up a quick sandwich on the run but I can't - yes a lot comes down to time management BUT I also take up to 45mins to eat ONE MEAL.  Surgeon told me to stop at 20, and generally I do but depending on the meal I give myself a little longer.  I also can't have a nice glass of wine with my pasta.  I can't drink and eat at the same time!  If I do... hello blockage. 

To anyone who thinks that I have done this to make it EASY walk a freaking month in my shoes!  It's not easy and at times I hate myself for having the damn surgery.  Being a woman also fucks with your band as you come into different parts of your cycle.  During ovulation I still crave chocolate and I bloat like HELL to the point I can only eat MUSH food.  Funnily enough when I get my period I am not too bad but I chug a lot more water.

I am sure those that read this don't think I took the easy option - but I am sure there are quite a few who do.  And you know what I don't care if you think I have taken the easy option.  Live your life where you LOVE TO JUDGE others for THEIR choices.  Just be lucky that YOU could do it on your own, and be thankful that I would NEVER judge YOU for your choices.

Been a bit slack

Not sure who is reading this blog - but I should do a post to update you all since I haven't posted since October (oops, my bad).

So let's break it down since my last post - I finished my semester of school and passed and then we had Christmas along with parties and running around in between.

Christmas was good - I was able to have a Pork Roast with my family and I was able to do it blockage free!  I had an extremely small serve compared to what I used to eat in the past.  In fact, at Christmas I wouldn't hold back on having seconds or thirds, and not small servings either.  I was also able to have a small amount of trifle and pavlova.  So I was happy.  I contribute being able to eat more than normal with my band due to the fact my surgeon only popped a small amount of fluid last time.  It was both out decision to do this so when we went away I didn't have to worry about complications with my band and being too tight.  In saying that I didn't put on any weight over this period during Christmas.  I maintained which is what I am happy with!

Boxing Day saw us leave for our camping holiday - this was my big test.  Camping holidays aren't very band friendly when it comes to food.  But I made sure I had stuff with me I COULD eat so the 3 days we were there I succeeded - unlike my alcohol intake LOL.  That was a little naughty of me.  But I was walking to and fro the toilet block ALL the time, so that counts for something ;)

Unfortunately our camping trip was cut short when 100km/h (plus) winds ripped through our campsite ripping out tent and gazebo.  We had to come home early.  Since then I have found it hard to find my groove with food meal preparation - I am not eating the best and I think it does boil down to how the camping trip ended.  I was a little down in the dumps about losing camping gear we had just brought this year and not having the money to replace it.  But I am getting there.  My water intake is a lot better today so I am happy with that.

On a good note - I am not 6 months POST operation - and today I officially weighed in 30.2kg lighter from my starting date!!!!  I made my first BIG goal.  Now I am taking it in smaller amounts and working in 5kg's lots.  I am hoping to have lost 60kg by my birthday :)